Myf Warhurst will discuss the loss of her ex fiancé, The Drones drummer Mike Noga, in her new memoir.
The Australian musician, who also drummed for rock band Legends Of Motorsport, died of a cerebral hemorrhage in August 2020 at the age of 43.
The Spicks and Specks star, 49, tells this week's issue of Stellar Magazine that she had to visit some dark depths to write about the experience in her upcoming book, Time Of My Life.
'My ex died during lockdown and I wrote about that experience. I wrote about what a horrific experience that was for me and the people who loved him' she said.
'He was a musician and since then, I've struggled to listen to his music'.
Myf says she sought the permission of Noga's family to discuss his life and death.
'I had a consultation with his family. I wanted to make sure they were comfortable with it, so there's some pretty heavy stuff in there, but I also wanted to be honest about me and who I am' she said.
'Life is hard and there have been times that it has been quite difficult, and I think, for the first time, I am comfortable showing that to people'.
Myf and Mike had a long term relationship, becoming engaged in 2011 before splitting in 2014, and had in recent years reestablished a friendship.
Following his death, Mike's sister Ali called for better mental health awareness in the Australian music industry, disclosing that her brother's death was in part cause by his reliance on alcohol.
'Mike had a lifelong struggle with anxiety and depression which became particularly difficult in the last three years of his life, during which time he often relied on alcohol to self-medicate,' Ali said in a statement.
'Being on the road constantly made it difficult for Mike to get professional help for his anxiety and depression and often it was all too easy to self-medicate with alcohol in order to board a flight, get through a gig or to deal with stress in general.'
She continued, 'As music lovers, we should remember that many of us turn to the arts in order to nurture our own mental wellbeing and we need to have an awareness that the people who create for us may sometimes be suffering themselves.
'Our deepest wish for those in the industry and those that love music is that you please be kind and supportive of each other.'
